Dressings of Expression

In a daze, staring at naked paper once again.
Wanting to clothe it with emotions, tailored in black ink.
Scatter brained, I cannot make my thoughts coincide.

You approach the entryway of my mind and situate yourself on the outside.
You will not get through the barriers I have built for the past ten years.
Never again will my heart control my mind when your fatherless essence draws near.
My hand will not play translator for the two any longer.

Still I sit with a blank gaze, tying to pour out feelings trapped within me.
Why am I incapable of smothering a lifeless tree with meaningful expression?
Empty headed, I reach for a time when I was entirely content with life.

Days of being young and naive come back to me.
Games our juvenile minds' created to fill the sunlight hours.
We imagined growing up together and staying friends forever.
Children are so innocently simplistic, they believe in only the best of everything.

My eyes fall out of focus as the words begin to dance in a murky haze.
Delusion creates a harmonious piece of work, yet its ambiance is vacant.
I cannot set my sight on any one particular notion.

Thoughts of the one gone astray and various heartaches flash before my heavy eyes.
I would take my last breath to consume the sensations of love once again.
I come by only those who inflict pain and hide behind false faces.
All the pain has weathered, yet still I weep in waiting for the one I cannot find.

Exhausted now, concentration slips through the grasp of my feeble fist.
Hours of darkness hush as daybreak screams out for me to pursue slumber.
My frustration subsides...just as adequately as this canvas is dressed...I can rest.

Just Another Body

Awake now, I lie in daylight darkness.
Anger thumps inside my head.
Sadness slashes the back of my eyelids.
My icy cheek kisses the sorrow upon my pillow.
Swollen eyed, my vision is cloudy.
Drenched tissues clasped between my fingers still.
The night's misery has all but suffocated me.
I am capable only of taking one airless breath after another.

I refuse to let myself endure this nonsense any longer.
I sit up in bed, take a deep breath and wipe the black from under my eyes.
There is no definition between you and the others, please do not kid yourself.
You are just another body to toss aside with those who have deceived me.
Beaten down by your selfishness without warning, even so, I will not welcome defeat.
I will find all that I deserve as you ponder the mindless lies that rolled off your tongue.
Then reality will force regrets upon your lips as you long for all you have abandoned.
Smiles will light my face as you bask in the loneliness your idiocy has created.

Take With You, These Words

The last second has struck on the clock.
You are ready for life's next stepping block.

Where do I begin now that summer's end is here?
What do I say to a friend I hold so dear?

….The journey you are about to embark upon, may seem overwhelming at times.
Nevertheless, be strong, continue on and you will be just fine.

Grow, make yourself, and have a blast.
Be afraid not to move on, but to forget your past.

Make new friends, but do not forget the ones from which you part.
Hold each and every memory, old and new, close to your heart.

Remember your family, all the fun times and talks shared with friends.
Know that leaving does not mean any of this must come to an end.

Take heed in everything and anything that you do.
Yet, do not be afraid to try something new.

Experience life and all it has to offer to its boundless extent.
And never let anyone have control over your mind-set.

You are loved and cherished by so many for all that you have grown to be.
So, always remember that and never let anyone tell you differently….

Take with you these words of comfort and advice.
Consider them, but know that only your decisions will suffice.

No matter what is to come, when you need someone, I swear to always be there.
And every time you read this, let it be a reminder of just how much I care.