You

One thousand and ninety-five days, I lived for you.

Thousands and thousands of tears I cried for you.

At least a million smiles…I smiled because of you.

Emotions I didn't know I was capable of, shined through because of you.

My heart, my soul, my life…I gave to you.

I was indescribably in love with you.

I had to love enough for both myself and you.

Your heart wasn't open…deprived me of equal feelings from you.

Now I am finally over you.

And now I honestly feel what it's like to be loved by you. 

Irretrievable Love

In the solitude of sunless days, I swear your voice still falls upon my ears.
Your image burns endlessly in my mind.
At times, I am left sleepless, drowning myself in memories of what used to be.
In my dreams, thoughts of you float, night after night.
Many times, I awake in excitement and anticipation to see your face...feel your touch.
As my mind slips back into reality and my heart calms, I see that I am without you.
I look around only to find myself in an empty bed of loneliness.

My life, my love for so long...gone...gone.

By choice, I sent you away, then why do I miss you so?
Why do I feel there to be a void in my soul, a vacancy in my heart?
Almost perfect you were my love, no one quite like you have I ever met.
Forever it seems, we held on tight, fighting to save our love.
Yet, my deceitful ways and your domination over me sabotaged it.
I miss you deeply darling and you will always be in my heart, but never again can our hearts be together.

My Everything

My destiny.
The only one for me. 
My one and only desire.
The spark to my fire. 
My ecstasy.
In your arms is where I love to be. 
My winter, spring, summer, and fall.
My everything, my world, my all. 
You are every emotion that I have.
When I cry, when I smile, when I laugh. 
You are always there for me.
I’ll be here for you until eternity. 
Any girl would be lucky to have you.
That’s why I’m terrified of you going away to school. 
I’m scared my luck will fade away,
and you’ll make another girl lucky one day. 
So please, think of my while you’re away.
I’ll think of you everyday. 
Promise we’ll at least keep in touch and stay friends.
Promise me we’ll be there for each other until the end.

The Lover Is Gone

A friend in you I will always find,
but to be your love is what I had in mind.
You’re all I want, you’re all I need,
but you left me with my soul to bleed.
You use to fill my heart with such happiness,
but now you’ve replaced it all with sadness.
My eyes full of tears, my heart full of pain.
You let go and I know I need to do the same.
But letting go of you,
leaves nothing to look forward to.
The lover I once found in you is gone,
but I just can’t seem to move on.
My mind knows what’s best for me,
but these feelings I hold won’t make it easy.

Full Moon

I sit here under the sky.
Gazing at the stars; missing you. 
I think about how slowly time passes without you.
I wonder…can we see the same stars? 
A bit of comfort comes to me knowing we are under the same sky.
Please let this time apart make us stronger and not weaker. 

The moon half full, like our relationship.
It can go either way from day to day. 
A little light shines through one day…
Even more disappears the next. 
I hope like the moon, we will never burn out.
I wait for the day our hearts can be together. 

I wait for my full moon…for your love!

See Me Inside Out

You look at me and see a girl,
who has never been put outside her own world.
There is more to me than you know,
it’s there deep within my soul.
You only know the me your eyes let you see.
You know nothing about my past and how it used to be.
Look at me from the inside out.
Get to know me and what I’m all about.
The pain, anger and fear I will no longer hide,
if you take the time to look at me from the inside.

Challenge

So many obstacles stand tall,

in our way of having it all.

So many problems stand strong,

in our way of being everything but wrong.

All I want is to be happy with you,

but the perplexity won’t let me through.

I love you with all my heart,

but it seems as if destiny has set us apart.

The challenge to be together is incredible,

I just hope it is not inevitable.