Tuesday, February 6, 2001

Lexi Bailey

Another day, another black eye.
This time the bruise is too intense to hide.
He comes into my room late at night.
We both know his actions are not right.
He covers my mouth and pins me down.
I cry out for help, but no one is around.
My blood runs cold as he defiles my body.
This continual torture fills me with
…lowliness…rage…agony.

Daddy, why must you do this to me?
I have never done anything to deserve such humility.
How am I supposed to face everyone at school?
What do I say when they question my face being black and blue?
I’ll just tell another wild story to cure their concern.
This secret will live…isolated inside me…and I’ll let it burn.

Thursday, February 1, 2001

Tyler Rayze

It’s hard being the new guy.
So quiet, yet so much to say.

Hiding behind this demure mask.
All strangers to me in this renovated existence.

Refusing to look beyond the surface,
into my calloused soul.

Underestimating my intelligence.
Ignoring my unique talents.

Overlooking my kind heart.
Disregarding my friendship,

I want to be me.
Please get to know me…please.

Friday, July 23, 1999

My Everything

My destiny.
The only one for me. 
My one and only desire.
The spark to my fire. 
My ecstasy.
In your arms is where I love to be. 
My winter, spring, summer, and fall.
My everything, my world, my all. 
You are every emotion that I have.
When I cry, when I smile, when I laugh. 
You are always there for me.
I’ll be here for you until eternity. 
Any girl would be lucky to have you.
That’s why I’m terrified of you going away to school. 
I’m scared my luck will fade away,
and you’ll make another girl lucky one day. 
So please, think of my while you’re away.
I’ll think of you everyday. 
Promise we’ll at least keep in touch and stay friends.
Promise me we’ll be there for each other until the end.

Wednesday, June 30, 1999

The Lover Is Gone

A friend in you I will always find,
but to be your love is what I had in mind.
You’re all I want, you’re all I need,
but you left me with my soul to bleed.
You use to fill my heart with such happiness,
but now you’ve replaced it all with sadness.
My eyes full of tears, my heart full of pain.
You let go and I know I need to do the same.
But letting go of you,
leaves nothing to look forward to.
The lover I once found in you is gone,
but I just can’t seem to move on.
My mind knows what’s best for me,
but these feelings I hold won’t make it easy.

Wednesday, August 5, 1998

Wicked World

THE RICH BECOME RICHER.
THE POOR BECOME POORER.
FAMILIES, INDIVIDUALS,
STRUGGLE TO SURVIVE.
POVERTY, STARVATION,
HUNGRY MOUTHS LEFT UN-FED.
ILLNESSES, DISEASES,
SO FEW CURES.
HOMELESS, HUNGRY,
AND SICK
SUFFER LIVING
ON THE STREETS.


ARGUMENTS BEGIN.
FIGHTS START.
HATE STRIVES.
WARS BREAK OUT.
WEAPONS USED.
INNOCENT PEOPLE,
FRIGHTENED CHILDREN
INJURED AND KILLED.
BY MISTAKE OR NOT,
CRIMES AND MURDERS
ARE COMMITTED.


CHILD ABUSE.
ABANDONMENT.
RAPE. NEGLECT.
SICK, TWISTED PEOPLE
HURT OTHERS IN
SO MANY WAYS.
CHILDREN BEAT,
LEFT ALONE TO
FEND FOR THEMSELVES.
SCARRED FOR LIFE
BOTH MENTALLY
AND PHYSICALLY.
THESE VICTIMS
TOO TERRIFIED,
EMBARRASSED,
AND ASHAMED
TO TELL A SOUL.
JUSTICE IS WITHHELD.


CHILD, TEEN, OR ADULT,
VICTIM OR CRIMINAL,
WE ARE ALL PART OF IT.
PART OF THIS CRUEL,
VICIOUS WORLD.
PAIN, AGONY, ANGER,
HATRED, MISERY, AND
DEPRIVATION.
THIS BRUTAL HELL HOLE
IS FULL OF PROBLEMS.


THE SAY HELL IS
THE WORLD BELOW,
THERE TO PUNISH
US FOR OUR SINS.
I SAY WE’VE CREATED
OUR OWN CHAOTIC
HELL HERE ON EARTH.
NOW WE MUST STAY
TO LIVE IT UNTIL WE
DIE AND ARE SET
FREE!

Sunday, June 21, 1998

Full Moon

I sit here under the sky.
Gazing at the stars; missing you. 
I think about how slowly time passes without you.
I wonder…can we see the same stars? 
A bit of comfort comes to me knowing we are under the same sky.
Please let this time apart make us stronger and not weaker. 

The moon half full, like our relationship.
It can go either way from day to day. 
A little light shines through one day…
Even more disappears the next. 
I hope like the moon, we will never burn out.
I wait for the day our hearts can be together. 

I wait for my full moon…for your love!

Wednesday, May 27, 1998

See Me Inside Out

You look at me and see a girl,
who has never been put outside her own world.
There is more to me than you know,
it’s there deep within my soul.
You only know the me your eyes let you see.
You know nothing about my past and how it used to be.
Look at me from the inside out.
Get to know me and what I’m all about.
The pain, anger and fear I will no longer hide,
if you take the time to look at me from the inside.

Challenge

So many obstacles stand tall,
in our way of having it all.
So many problems stand strong,
in our way of being everything but wrong.
All I want is to be happy with you,
but the perplexity won’t let me through.
I love you with all my heart,
but it seems as if destiny has set us apart.
The challenge to be together is incredible,
I just hope it is not inevitable.

Wednesday, May 20, 1998

High School Girls

I went to a party, I was drinking.
I made a mistake, I wasn't thinking.
Two guys, one night.
One was wrong, one was right.
I lost my self-respect and felt so low.
I didn't want anyone to know.
But of course when I got to school,
just about everyone knew.
My friends all looked at me differently.
People who didn't know me, knew me.
I heard them talking,
I kept walking.
I saw them stare,
I acted as if I didn't care.
In reality I was dying.
On the inside I was crying.
I got myself into one bad situation,
and now I've got a reputation.
How much I wish that night would have never taken place,
or at least from my mind, could be erased.

Tuesday, August 12, 1997

Mysterious Love

You're the man I know I love.
You're the man I'm dreaming of.
You're the man I'm waiting for,
but I still don't know who you are.