My Everything

My destiny.
The only one for me. 
My one and only desire.
The spark to my fire. 
My ecstasy.
In your arms is where I love to be. 
My winter, spring, summer, and fall.
My everything, my world, my all. 
You are every emotion that I have.
When I cry, when I smile, when I laugh. 
You are always there for me.
I’ll be here for you until eternity. 
Any girl would be lucky to have you.
That’s why I’m terrified of you going away to school. 
I’m scared my luck will fade away,
and you’ll make another girl lucky one day. 
So please, think of my while you’re away.
I’ll think of you everyday. 
Promise we’ll at least keep in touch and stay friends.
Promise me we’ll be there for each other until the end.

The Lover Is Gone

A friend in you I will always find,
but to be your love is what I had in mind.
You’re all I want, you’re all I need,
but you left me with my soul to bleed.
You use to fill my heart with such happiness,
but now you’ve replaced it all with sadness.
My eyes full of tears, my heart full of pain.
You let go and I know I need to do the same.
But letting go of you,
leaves nothing to look forward to.
The lover I once found in you is gone,
but I just can’t seem to move on.
My mind knows what’s best for me,
but these feelings I hold won’t make it easy.

Wicked World

THE RICH BECOME RICHER.
THE POOR BECOME POORER.
FAMILIES, INDIVIDUALS,
STRUGGLE TO SURVIVE.
POVERTY, STARVATION,
HUNGRY MOUTHS LEFT UN-FED.
ILLNESSES, DISEASES,
SO FEW CURES.
HOMELESS, HUNGRY,
AND SICK
SUFFER LIVING
ON THE STREETS.


ARGUMENTS BEGIN.
FIGHTS START.
HATE STRIVES.
WARS BREAK OUT.
WEAPONS USED.
INNOCENT PEOPLE,
FRIGHTENED CHILDREN
INJURED AND KILLED.
BY MISTAKE OR NOT,
CRIMES AND MURDERS
ARE COMMITTED.


CHILD ABUSE.
ABANDONMENT.
RAPE. NEGLECT.
SICK, TWISTED PEOPLE
HURT OTHERS IN
SO MANY WAYS.
CHILDREN BEAT,
LEFT ALONE TO
FEND FOR THEMSELVES.
SCARRED FOR LIFE
BOTH MENTALLY
AND PHYSICALLY.
THESE VICTIMS
TOO TERRIFIED,
EMBARRASSED,
AND ASHAMED
TO TELL A SOUL.
JUSTICE IS WITHHELD.


CHILD, TEEN, OR ADULT,
VICTIM OR CRIMINAL,
WE ARE ALL PART OF IT.
PART OF THIS CRUEL,
VICIOUS WORLD.
PAIN, AGONY, ANGER,
HATRED, MISERY, AND
DEPRIVATION.
THIS BRUTAL HELL HOLE
IS FULL OF PROBLEMS.


THE SAY HELL IS
THE WORLD BELOW,
THERE TO PUNISH
US FOR OUR SINS.
I SAY WE’VE CREATED

OUR OWN CHAOTIC
HELL HERE ON EARTH.
NOW WE MUST STAY
TO LIVE IT UNTIL WE
DIE AND ARE SET
FREE!

Full Moon

I sit here under the sky.
Gazing at the stars; missing you. 
I think about how slowly time passes without you.
I wonder…can we see the same stars? 
A bit of comfort comes to me knowing we are under the same sky.
Please let this time apart make us stronger and not weaker. 

The moon half full, like our relationship.
It can go either way from day to day. 
A little light shines through one day…
Even more disappears the next. 
I hope like the moon, we will never burn out.
I wait for the day our hearts can be together. 

I wait for my full moon…for your love!

See Me Inside Out

You look at me and see a girl,
who has never been put outside her own world.
There is more to me than you know,
it’s there deep within my soul.
You only know the me your eyes let you see.
You know nothing about my past and how it used to be.
Look at me from the inside out.
Get to know me and what I’m all about.
The pain, anger and fear I will no longer hide,
if you take the time to look at me from the inside.

Challenge

So many obstacles stand tall,

in our way of having it all.

So many problems stand strong,

in our way of being everything but wrong.

All I want is to be happy with you,

but the perplexity won’t let me through.

I love you with all my heart,

but it seems as if destiny has set us apart.

The challenge to be together is incredible,

I just hope it is not inevitable.

High School Girls

I went to a party, I was drinking.
I made a mistake, I wasn't thinking.

Two guys, one night.
One was wrong, one was right.

I lost my self-respect and felt so low.
I didn't want anyone to know.

But of course when I got to school,
just about everyone knew.

My friends all looked at me differently.
People who didn't know me, knew me.

I heard them talking,
I kept walking.

I saw them stare,
I acted as if I didn't care.

In reality I was dying.
On the inside I was crying.

I got myself into one bad situation,
and now I've got a reputation.

How much I wish that night would have never taken place,
or at least from my mind, could be erased.

Mysterious Love

You're the man I know I love.
You're the man I'm dreaming of.
You're the man I'm waiting for,
but I still don't know who you are.

The Divorce is Final

What started out as an argument, quickly turned into a fight as their voices grew louder and louder.
I hear them screaming and shouting.
My stomach begins to sicken, twist and turn.
My heart beats at a vigorous pace.
My blood pressure rises higher and higher.
My palms begin to sweat.
The tears pour down my frightened face.
Thoughts of confusion and frustration wonder loosely in my mind.
I can feel the loneliness of the dark, cold closet where I am hiding.
Their words against each other go through me, chillingly piercing my heart and soul.
“You’re an unfit mother and a slut!” he shouts at her.
As I come out of hiding, I look to see what is going on.
I can see them, but they cannot see me.
Being extremely enraged, she punches him in his arm, knocking him off his seat.
The crash of the falling chair echoes among the walls.
She lies on the floor face down, holding her wrist which pains horrendously.
I see him give her a quick kick to the ribs.
Little did he know I was there watching, watching every move he made.
He looks up, he sees me.
He knows what I had seen.
He howlers, “Remember I never touched your mother!”
I stood there feeling shocked.
How could he lie straight to my face when he knew I had seen everything?
“Liar! Liar!” I yelled at him in rage and fury as I ran to my room.
He picks up the phone to call the police.
We wait for them to come.
During that time, silence crept up on the apartment like a predator would upon it’s prey.
I think…….am I liable for this situation?
Within fifteen minutes the police arrive.
So many questions they ask me to answer.
I try to stop the flow of tears and tell them what they want to know.
Then, they escort me to my neighbor’s house where I am to stay the night.

No sleep did I get that March night knowing the divorce was final.