Blue Eyes

Last night I picked up the phone to hear your voice on the other end.
Why bother now…our relationship has lost the ability to mend.

Are you starting to feel guilty? Do you want to make things right?
You said, "I'm sorry I missed Christmas sweetie. Things have been a little tight."

You said, "I promise this time I'll make it up to you, you'll see."
When will you see that all I really want is for you love me?

"How old are you now dear?" you ask when you should know.
You had to do it; you could not just leave well enough alone.

Yes father, today is my eighteenth birthday.
"Well the child support and health benefits will be ceased," you say.

Selfish man, you care nothing about me.
You love only yourself and your petty money.

Why bother? Why waste your time?
Always feeding me some bullshit line.

The tears wash the brown away...
What a way to say happy birthday.

Grandpa

I catch a glimpse of your beautiful smile, so kind.
I gaze into your omniscient eyes.
Your aged hands brush the hair from my face,
and welcome me with a gentle embrace.
The sent of your cologne fills the room,
bringing back every single memory I have of you.
With melancholy lips and misty eyes,
in my ear you whisper goodbye.
Wait grandpa! ...I love you! ...Please don't go.
I'm begging you, please, don't leave me here alone!
Come back! ...I miss you! ...I need you here by my side!
Why!? Why did you have to say goodbye!?


I awake in a bed full of tears.
It was all a dream; you've been gone for years.


(1913-1997)
R.I.P

Irretrievable Love

In the solitude of sunless days, I swear your voice still falls upon my ears.
Your image burns endlessly in my mind.
At times, I am left sleepless, drowning myself in memories of what used to be.
In my dreams, thoughts of you float, night after night.
Many times, I awake in excitement and anticipation to see your face...feel your touch.
As my mind slips back into reality and my heart calms, I see that I am without you.
I look around only to find myself in an empty bed of loneliness.

My life, my love for so long...gone...gone.

By choice, I sent you away, then why do I miss you so?
Why do I feel there to be a void in my soul, a vacancy in my heart?
Almost perfect you were my love, no one quite like you have I ever met.
Forever it seems, we held on tight, fighting to save our love.
Yet, my deceitful ways and your domination over me sabotaged it.
I miss you deeply darling and you will always be in my heart, but never again can our hearts be together.

Mother

Up late again mom?
Can’t sleep?
What troubles you?
Weight of your dilemmas to heavy?
Seeing yourself fall into financial ruin once again?

It’s not your fault.
You were swindled twice; daddy and the ex.
Everything will be okay.
This guy is great and he loves you.
We’ve been through worse, things will get better again.

Worried about me?
Think you failed?
Feel you can’t support me well enough?
Concerned about my future?
Don’t want me to follow in your footsteps?

Don’t worry mom, I’ll be just fine.
You have never failed me.
You have always done your best.
I don’t despise you, I admire you.
I love you.

When Darkness Descends

Skies of the deepest blue.
Gleaming stars shine through.

Whispers linger in the twilight.
Reality vanishes out of sight.

Fancy-free reveries come with nightfall.
Daytime burdens fade for all.

Sunrise lightens the colors of blue.
The sky shows every shade of every hue.

Fantasies end with the dawn of the sun.
Another troublesome day has just begun.

My Little Secret

Secretly, I’m intrigued by you.
I’m burning with curiosity.
I scrutinize your every move.
I crave you.
I long to indulge myself in you.
I need to unlock the mystery.
Alone.

Secretly, I want to be with you.
I’m eager to hold you, kiss you, adore you.
I’m itching to feel your touch.
I hope to trust you.
I want to show myself to you.
I anticipate sharing my dreams with you.
Alone still.

Shades of Blue

Somber eyes.

Sinking souls.

Malicious lies. 

Faint complexions.

Dark words.

Feelings of disconsolation. 

Shattered cores.

Secluded thoughts.

Hidden doors. 

Desolate sensations.

Doubting individuality.

Yearning for admiration.

Live

Enjoy each moment.
Live your life to it’s fullest.
Make your dreams come true.

Lexi Bailey

Another day, another black eye.
This time the bruise is too intense to hide.
He comes into my room late at night.
We both know his actions are not right.
He covers my mouth and pins me down.
I cry out for help, but no one is around.
My blood runs cold as he defiles my body.
This continual torture fills me with
…lowliness…rage…agony.

Daddy, why must you do this to me?
I have never done anything to deserve such humility.
How am I supposed to face everyone at school?
What do I say when they question my face being black and blue?
I’ll just tell another wild story to cure their concern.
This secret will live…isolated inside me…and I’ll let it burn.

Tyler Rayze

It’s hard being the new guy.
So quiet, yet so much to say.

Hiding behind this demure mask.
All strangers to me in this renovated existence.

Refusing to look beyond the surface,
into my calloused soul.

Underestimating my intelligence.
Ignoring my unique talents.

Overlooking my kind heart.
Disregarding my friendship,

I want to be me.
Please get to know me…please.